got home early from work today..had a group session observation at the changi women's prison jus now..earlier in the morning, i had to go to sch for my tutorial.. then had to take a cab to rush back to the office..the cab fare was 18 bucks..sheesh! 18 bucks gone jus like dat..
anw my exam results will be out tmr..hmm, actually i dunno wat to expect la..but i jus hope for the best..if nt gd, then i really need to do smth abt it already..haiyoh, im damn nervous..having all the jitters thinking abt it.. nt sure if im able to check the results fr the office computer tmr
anw i sorta figure out what i wanna do after i graduate..was thinking of prison school teacher..since i enjoy teaching n im majoring in social work, i thot becoming a prison teacher wud be a gd idea since it incorporates both my social work knowledge n teaching experience..im still in the middle of gathering info how to go abt becoming a prison teacher..emailed MOE abt it cos i thot i hafta go thru NIE training n all dat, but they replied saying dat the prisons dept has their own criteria on choosing their teachers..so shall jus wait for the repli fr MHA then.. actually hani also thot of the same thing..
n i jus found out dat wif my social work major, i can only teach pri sch level if i were to join NIE..dat sucks man..i dun understand y the psychology major can teach both pri n sec level..its so not fair..cos psychology is also nt a learning subject wat..haiz anw the pay to be a teacher is definitely a perk..if degree holder, u'll be paid a starting salary of $2.2K.. well c la how things go.. i have like the whole yr to plan everything..hehe
~flew by @ 7:04 PM
one wk nvr update my blog..dats a record breaking!! had wanted to faithfully update my blog regularly, but too tired to even switch on my laptop n get connected to the net..hehe so lemme do a brief summary of wat's been happening dis week
tuesdayhad a field trip to pertapis halfway hse n christian care as part of my attachment programme.. very enriching n educational experience..the whole thing ended ard 4 plus, n we were allowed to go hm after dat..so it was cool! then at night, as usual, i had my religious class at ghufran mosque
wednesdaywent back to the office..did nthg much until after lunch..had to help out my supervisor wif the video filming of the inmates at lloyd leas work release camp(llc)..fyi, llc is smth like a prison setting, but it has a low security concept..inmates who have ard 1-2 more years left to finish their sentence will be transferred to llc where some of them will get a chance to go out to work depending on their conduct in prison..anw the whole filming thingy took quite some time.. but the inmates had gd acting skills tho
thursdaydis is the time me n hani were waiting for..we started on our individual counselling sessions.. we both did three couselling sessions..the experience? it was an eye opener n increased my self awareness..since its the first session, it wasnt much of a counselling la..more like an interview, getting to noe the inmates n building rapport with them..all three inmates with i interviewed were of different personality..the first one was pretty ok, rather quiet tho..the second one..he's wat i thot an inmate would behave..he's rather pessimistic n he did 'challenged' me in some aspects..but if he thinks he can mess ard wif me, he's so wrong..i actually did challenged him back wen i responded to his remarks..my supervisor was in the counselling rm wif me n hani to observe us..he said i handled the situation pretty well for the second inmate..the third one was also nt dat bad, he's willing to cooperate la..after lunch, we had to help put with the video pdn thingy again..n the biggest surprise was me n hani was asked to act!! gosh..lucky my role was jus a small one..they goin to use dis video to educate the inmates as part of the programme..haizz dats one minute of fame for me or even my initial step to stardom..haha
fridaywe jus stayed in the office..did the case recordings for the interview session for yest..at least there's smth to do to fill up our time..n for lunch, ms farha(my supervisor) treated us to lunch at swensen's..is dat hot or wat? i think dat's hot(saying it like paris hilton..haha) i thot we goin to eat fast food or wat..skali she ajak gi swensens ah..i had the breaded chicken as usual..hehe n we didnt noe dat our lunch comes wif a complimentary ice-cream cos wen we were abt to leave, the waitress placed the small spoon on our table..the nxt thing we knew, ice-cream was served.. farha was saying, "kalau dia org antar ice-cream, we jus bedal aje la.."haha its funny to hear her speak malay..cos i always hear her speak proper english in the office..n she jus gave me the impression dat she's very english-educated plus she doesnt look so malay-ish..but her husband, muka mcm mat abis seh..haha but it was a gd bonding session wif her la esp since she's always so bz..even wen we leaving for lunch, she said we better get out of the office now before anything important crop up.
after work, i met up wif the gurls..at last, the five of us got to meet up..me, kisha, ita, non n ain. we had dinner at the food court at century square..a very nice n cosy ambience there..had lots of fun n laughter wen we're together..really treasure moments like dis since everyone is so bz wif their work n other commitments now..i jus wish them all the best in their undertakings.
saturdaydis day was a nice n romantic day spent wif my one n only dearie..haha klah its nt really dat romantic la..jus a simple date..met up wif him ard 2 plus at clementi since i was fr sch..then we headed to cineleisure to catch madagascar..its very funny! shld catch it..but i think the movie is rather short.. it was full hse yest n there's lots of kids with their parents..kecoh the cinema!! after the movie, we headed to sakura to haf our late lunch..i was really so famished after the movie..n me, as usual la..wen im hungry, my mood tak betul sikit..haha very grumpy!! so wen we reached far east, i was already ok la since i noe dat its makan time..dearie was saying smth like "wah..dah hyper nampak..mentang2 nak gi mkn"haha..i guess he noes me so well..there's three times wen my mood suddenly changes from happy to moody..dats wen im hungry, tired n sleepy..rite dear? haha
after dat, we jln2 ard town..i bought a top also..then dah penat jln, we decided to lepak at coffeebean at taka..had my fave mocha ice blended n chicago cheesecake..yummy! after dat, we slowly walked to our usual bus stop to take bus 65..n in the bus, there's this grp of boys who were so irritating..i got pissed at them!! until i bahasa kan dia org balik..i think dearie was quite shocked ah..after those jebronis left the bus, he said "so berani ah u..tak padan kecik" but i cant help it seh..they deserve it! then he told me, nxt time, buat bodoh je..dun say anything unless they really go overboard..its kinda hard to narrate wat those boys did or say dat makes me so pissed..jus hope that i will never ever bump into them again!!
anw dearie told be a piece of gd news..he passed the entrance test to take higher nitec course.. really proud of him altho he said it was really nthg..but i told him, its a first step to everything n im glad he took the initiative to improve himself..the course will take ard three years to complete on a part time basis..so make full use of this opportunity k dear..all the best in ur future undertakings n i hope u noe dat i will always give u my encouragement n support n pray for ur success..insya'allah
sundaya time to slack at home..need to read up some things for the seminar session dis tues..haiz n also need to do my laundry..
i guess dis entry is long enuff to make up for the days which i didnt update huh? hehe happy reading peeps!!
~flew by @ 11:51 AM
met up wif dearie jus now..he took the day off jus to go out wif me..hehe supposedly, he's working today..well we had a movie marathon jus now..caught 2 movies, or shld i say 1 and 3/4 movie?haha first, we watched amityville horror which was quite scary to me..a lot of terperanjat scenes which made me had jump..nt literally tho..luckily i had dearie wif me, so i jus grabbed his arm n buried my face..haha
after dat, we had lunch at pizza hut *yum2* then headed back to the cinema to catch our second movie, the jacket..which was quite errmm, boring! dats wen dearie decided to leave the movie wen its 3/4 running..to jln2 at town..hehe i told him wasted seh spent so much on the tixs then tak tgk sampai habis..but he said nvm, he'll treat me to a movie nxt time..dat guy ah..org suruh tgk hse of wax, taknak..he wanna watch the jacket..haiz
anw after dat, we went jln2 ard far east..then suddenly, my stomach cramps attacked me..felt like i was goin to pass out seh jus now..but it was okie after i drank ice lemon tea..hehe n now, im getting it again..haiz i thnk i better go n rest..hopefully i'll feel better tmr
~flew by @ 11:23 PM
had the last session of mendaki jus now..i didnt teach today, jus spent time playing games wif the kids..i think my class was the only class which didnt study at all today..haha anw i wanna gif the kids a break fr studying also.
goin out for dinner later wif my family n my aunt's family plus my bro's gf..well my parents, aunt, uncle n grandma are goin to his gf's hse tmr to 'merisik'..to set a date for the engagement n also the hantaran..actually everything is set la, jus wanna make it official n for the sake of formality..hehe its kinda funny seh to hear my parents discussing abt dis wif my bro..my dad sure kanchiong tmr cos he dun have any experience in all these b4..haha since my bro is the first one in our family to get married..confirm bnyk sponsors seh for his wedding in the future..first grandchild la kata kan..i think for the girl's side its much easier..jus wait for the representatives fr the guy's side to set everything..senang la me later..tunggu je kat rumah..kwang3 well i dun think mine is anytime soon tho..hopefully in 5-6 yrs time perhaps..need to ask dearie how much money he saved already..hehe the last time i asked him abt it, his savings is still far fr enough ;-p
~flew by @ 6:25 PM
hmm..havent been updating my blog for quite a long time..been too tired to do so..hehe anw jus wanna gif a quick run down of wat i've been doin these few days (as tho u ppl can be bothered wif my life!haha..)
well as u noe, i've been working..more like bumming my ass off at the office..hehe but dis wk wasnt dat bored..had a few visits, firstly to selarang park drc(spd) yesterday..n jus now, had a visit to kaki bukit centre(kbc) prisons school..those two visits were an eye opener n a very enriching experience for me..dat was wen i got my first close contact wif the inmates cos they were free to move ard within the institution..so dat was cool! n the inmates in kbc are really smart n creative..they even haf their own radio n tv station..how cool is dat?! in a nutshell, i had a great fun n exposure fr those two visits
last mon, met up wif charmaine n sheeks for dinner cum sheesha session..met charmaine at bugis mrt n headed to al-majlis..sheeks came very much later wen both of us almost finished our food..she wasnt feeling too well dat day..so poor thing. n they had a lil surprise for me..they actually bought me cakes..its a belated bday celebration la..n its nt the normal bday cake..they bought variety of slices of cakes which i thot was smth very diff n unique la..so dats the pic of the cakes n us taken using my hp..
n last sun, met up wif dearie..i was late dat day so i rushed to meet him at cineleisure..wen i came, he was sitting at the couch near the cinema..hehe lucky he didnt blow up or anything..well not dat he will do dat anw!haha..he see me, confirm cair punye..muahaha furthermore, he havent seen me for the past 2 wks ;-p well the movie kingdom of heaven was gd..tho i didnt understand some parts of it..after the movie, we went to eat at sakura n then walked ard b4 lepaking at coffeebean for a brownie n caffeine :-) dats where he gave me the gallaz sandals which he bought for me..didnt expect him to buy for me dat cos it was so long ago wen i said dat i liked the sandals n wanna get it for myself..but nevertheless, i lurve it..hehe thx baby!
~flew by @ 8:37 PM
haiz..i got nthg to do..kinda bored at home..had mendaki jus now..d kids finished exams so jus now, i spent some time playing games with them..played pictionary n charade..i think they enjoyed it very much!hehe wat do u expect, kids! nxt wk will be the last session for dis semester..lessons will only resume at the end of june..
actually i need to read up on a book to prepare for my counselling session on mon.. first time seh counselling inmates..damn nervous abt it, but i'll try nt to let it affect my performance..cos these inmates can smell fear, so once they noe u're scared of them, they'll 'makan' u..haha i've learn some lingo and jargons of the prison officers n inmates from the past one week..i also realised the ppl fr prison dept like to use short form..yest, one of the officers told me n hani dat he was goin to TMP, so if there's any calls for him, jus take a msg..so we said ok..then after he left, we started asking each other wat the hell is TMP..haha so we think n think, then i figured out dat it was tanah merah prison..haha so we need to learn all these short forms la to make things easier
anw im having a date wif dearie tmr..yay! at last, after 16 days!! gosh..we're watching a movie tmr, kingdom of heaven..no choice hafta watch movie on a sunday eventho its expensive..now wanna watch movie as often as last time also need to think twice..its damn expensive man the tixs..if i stay at wdlands, i jus go johor to watch movie..hehe save duit! nvm la, shall ask dearie to give me a treat tmr :-)
~flew by @ 3:13 PM
been quite some time since i last update my blog..been quite tired lately..n i slept earlier than my usual bedtime too..dearie wud have already noticed dat change cos everytime he calls me at the usual time, i will tell him dat i dun think i can talk for long cos im jus too sleepy..d tiredness was due to work of course..
altho i only started to do real work jus now, the past couple of days were for me n hani to read up some materials which our supervisor asked us to..so i was really tired fr jus sitting at my desk n jus read throughout the working hours..but jus now was different..it was the first stage of our 'real' work..we were asked to filed up the case file for the inmates which we will be counselling nxt week n haf a look at the inmate's record file..so dat was cool! looking forward to next wk to start on the real thing but at the same time, me n hani are really nervous abt it..dunna how we'll fair cos we might jus screw up everything..hopefully everything's gonna be ok la..n i'll be alone nxt wk fr tues to fri since hani will be on leave..haiz
oh yah, me n hani made frens wif the police guys working there..not as in get to noe them la..its bcos they see us everyday wen we wanna sign in n out of the prison hq, since they're in charge of security.. so like dah kenal like dat ah..they're harmless la but typical guys, like to kacau2 gerls..haiyoh
lastly, i really miss dearie..2 wks already never meet up wif him..hopefully i'll be free dis sun so dat we can go out together..haiz msged him at work jus now saying dat i miss him so much! but then, both of us r bz..only left wif sunday to meet up.. then wen hani told me dat she's meeting up wif her bf after work, i wished i could call dearie up to meet me also..but too bad, he's working :-( having lesser physical n emotional contact wif him nowadays..physical as in its been quite some time we last met n emotional as in we talked for shorter duration on the phone..dats bcos of my sleepiness n wen im sleepy, its better not to talk to me cos i can be very grumpy n moody..hehe i feel dat i wanna tell him so many things wen he calls, but i'm jus too tired to talk too much..so hopefully this sunday, i shall bombard him with all my stories..hehe jus get ready b, im gonna be so talkative until u'll beg me to shut up!! :-p
~flew by @ 9:19 PM
it was the first day of my field placement jus now..met hani at 9am at the gate of prison hq..then our supervisor met up wif us there too..exchaged our ic for the entrance pass n went for a tour ard the hq..our supervisor, ms farha, showed us ard the premises..i didnt know they have a library for counselors there..dats cool! them she brought us to the main office branch where me n hani were posted to..introduced us to all the staffs there..there's more than 10 of them..so we cant memorise the names or even recall who is who..haha then had our briefing in the conference rm.. the ppl there gave us background knowledge abt the prison settings n dealing with inmates..thot the whole thing wud end at 12noon since its orientation day, but it stretched till 5.30pm..haiz
my supervisor left us alone at our desk to lepak n do our own things.. then it was so boring cos we dun haf access to internet..the computer only haf access to intranet..boring giler seh we all! in the end, we looked thru the employees online resumes found on the intranet cos we logged in using our supervisor's user id.. some of the resumes so funny seh, esp under the special talent and hobbies section..cant reveal them here la cos it'll be treated as a breach of trust..strict rules n regulation there
anw was hoping to haf a tour of the prison jus now but my supervisor said she'll bring us there tmr..cant wait for dat!! n hopefully tmr will be more fun la cos i dun wanna bum ard the office doin nthg..its a waste of time and energy..n i will feel so restless like jus now..but luckily i got hani as my partner..wondering how my other friends are doin since they are all alone at their designated placement
~flew by @ 7:31 PM
well its mother's day today..so i'd like to wish my mom n all moms ard the world a happy mother's day!! no doubt me n my mom have our up n down moments once in a while.. but i noe no matter how much she nags at me, deep inside, she loves me..im her only daughter for gdness sake..haha hmm..dunno wats the plan for the celebration tho.. mebbi we're goin out for dinner later, im nt sure
i jus finished cleaning up my rm..folded the clothes n tidied up my wardrobe jus now.. guess i shall haf my lunch now..my stomach is grumbling already..till then
~flew by @ 3:25 PM
i've changed my blogskin..i think its nt bad rite for a first-timer?hehe didnt take very long to do it also..so im quite pleased with my capabilities i must say..hehe actually wen i first download the blogskin, there was a pic of cameron diaz but i replaced it wif my own pic..edit it into black n white n this is the final look! :-)
anw im feeling so lethargic today..last night, i could'nt sleep until abt 4am i think..no idea y..hopefully its nt insomnia la..been turning n tossing ard in bed until i felt so restless..woke up wif my eyes feeling quite sore due to lack of sleep..furthermore, i had mendaki jus now..i didnt feel so sleepy until after maghrib jus now..was lepaking on the sofa until i fell asleep in front of the tv.. haiz hope i can get my beauty sleep later..my body really needs dat before the start of my hectic schedule next wk
~flew by @ 11:21 PM
yesh..exams are finally over for me..at last! wen all my other frens have already been enjoying their holidays days before me..the malay studies paper jus now was ok.. but i guess i wrote crap! wasnt even in the mood to write properly..shld haf check out my handwriting..i pity my tutor who's gonna mark my paper..wen i looked at my own handwriting, i went blurgh!! so ugly man! so for my last qn, i wrote a bit nicely..dat one also finish jus in time wen the examiner said "pls stop writing." i guess all the qns which i spotted came out..but like i always say, under exam conditions, there isnt much time to refer back to the readings eventho its open bk..
anw i went to airport to haf dinner with non n ain jus now..had wanted to watch kingdom of heaven but last min, ain cant reach in time cos she ended work late.. so met up wif them at tamp then non drove to airport since her parents coming back fr jakarta ard 10plus..been so long since i last went to airport..so many changes there..but the renovation is still goin on
been goin out for dinner twice with them dis wk..kisha cant join us on both occasion due to her bz sch schedule..so its nt the fantastic four w/o her..hehe we went to eat at simpang bedok last mon, n then headed to changi to check out some bapoks..haha ain la, so enthu abt it..until non drove on the opposite direction of the road..dat was funny seh..lucky got no cars on the road at that moment
so as you can see, its not all study study study for me eventho i still had one more paper at that time..haha sempat keluar lepak2 lagi..n yest, i went to study at centrepoint's CB..n non msged me to accompany her to take a look at her new hse.. so while waiting for her, i shopped! gosh! bought a pink mango top! haiyoh..its really the opposite during my jc days..i was really a nerd back then..during the exam period, i totally shut off my social life
and i've been keeping myself bz wif mugging n exploring the functions of my hp..to avoid thinking n crying for the slightest reason..i think i'm doin ok so far, jus dun wanna think abt things dats gonna make me upset..i deserve to be happy..the exams r over for gdness sake..better enjoy it while i can.
~flew by @ 10:39 PM
last night was one of those teary nights..i cried so much. No specific reason as to y I shed those tears. It jus felt better after doin so. Wished there's someone to lend a shoulder for me to cry on..but then, no one was there..not literally tho. I dun think anyone would understand how im really feeling now. NOT even the person whom i THOT knew me so well. Definitely not a good timing to be in dis crappy depression mode rite now coz i still have one more paper to sit for. But seriously, i cant help it. Call me a weakling. I dun care.
Gosh!! what is it that i want? I guess i jus hated it when things dun go my way. And im not speaking up abt it. No one to blame yana, but YOURSELF! u put urself in this shit. so u better get out of it urself. wtf is wrong with me? i'm back to my old self where i bottled up everything inside me. i think i need sometime alone. away from the distractions in life. away from my family, bf n frens.
~flew by @ 12:47 AM
almost finish mugging for my last paper..lincah eh?hehe dats bcos i spot topics dats gonna be tested..out of 12 lects, i only concentrate on 4 lecture topics..based on past yr exam papers, hopefully i spotted the right topics la..
n im so damn moody these few days..probably its the time of the mth la..or im jus sick n tired of looking at my readings and lecture notes..haiz c'mon gerl, only a couple of days b4 u can burn all these notes!! haha
i guess everybody is bz wif their lives at the moment..haiz i feel dat im so lonely at this moment (humming akon's lonely now..hehe) thank god i have my attachment to fill my time up during the holidays..if not, boring seh duduk kat rumah je.. guess my time will be completely filled up once my attachment starts..i'll be working on mon-fri, 8.30am-6.00pm..probably i'll reach hm ard 7 plus..balik rumah confirm lepak, then hafta prepare for work the next day..on saturdays, having my tuition as usual..only left wif sunday for me to rest n rejuvenate myself at home..hmm, i think its better dat way to keep myself occupied..hopefully i'll enjoy my attachment la.. who noes got cute prison wardens or police guys..at least it serves as a motivation for me to look forward to go to work..no joke seh 9 1/2 hrs at changi prison.. kalau takde cute guys, merana la me n hani..no guys as eye-candy..tsk tsk
well i better cont mugging now before i start to feel sleepy again...till then.
~flew by @ 2:43 PM
im so bored man..boring weekend i guess..went to changi general hospital jus now to visit my uncle..d doctors havent concluded wat his sickness is..but they were saying mebbi its tb..anw he seemed ok jus now..left the hospital before maghrib to send my grandparents back to sengkang first..n here i am alone at home watching ice age..i shld be studying! haha havent even touch my readings for the last paper..but i promise myself to start tmr..so dat i haf ample time to finish my readings..
actually was supposed to go out tmr wif the gurls but seemed like we hafta cancel it cos ain is working n kisha is having a full day lect..haiz holiday pun ade lecture seh..tak kasi chance langsung her lecturers..hehe
i've been eating so such today..had roti prata for breakfast..while watching musika ekstravagenza, i ate some junk food..then lunch i had mee hongkong..my ayah said the mee hongkong looked like a lot for me to finish, so if i cant finish it, share wif my adik..skali i ate the whole of it..haha then jus now, balik fr hospital, mkn roti cecah sambal tumis ikan bilis lagik!! wah..dats a lot for today..then later confirm my parents buy some more food wen they get hm..haiz me kalau dah mood nak mkn, smua i bedal seh..haha
on a diff note, i jus cant get this phrase out of my mind.."little did i know that im in love with someone short n bald." well u figure it out ;-p
~flew by @ 8:40 PM
